New Beginnings...

This is the time of my life when I need the one closest to me (at least in proximity) to give me the support he can give now that I am on the family way.  This may be a scary time of my life where I have to be very careful of what I should eat or drink or put on my skin.

I just need someone to make me comfortable and not taken for granted.  This is the time I seek for love and hugs as I go through the stage of being a mom -

just as the life inside me wants to be nourished and taken cared of.

I want someone to hold my hands while I go through this journey and give me some hugs when I get scared.

Ulan

rainy days are here again rainy days remind me of the times that i am alone, single, hopeless romantic and inspired by the things around me. I always watched the rain pour heavily as I ponder on things that I'd like to think about: - what would I be like when I am 24? - Will there be someone who will truly ask me to marry him? - how soon can I get to enjoy the company of someone who will be there for me? - how hot would the soup be? - how soon will the rain stop? A lot of the people I know really don't like the rain at all. It may be for a lot of different reasons but the sure thing about it is that it somehow causes sadness to other people.  It reminds them about break ups, heart aches and losses.  It causes them to fret and worry about what's going to happen or what had happened. Lucky me, the rain was with me all the while.  And happy days were there when I was with the rain. It made me take a different perspective about it...

Panunumpa

It's the nth day after D day and there had been a quiet aftermath. We are now going back to Manila... I know everything won't be the same as it was but I am hoping for a better future... One that I won't have to worry about things around us. It may be a difficult challenge for me - since the day I came back in the Philippines and learning about things that went wrong while I was away. I am just hoping things are going to change like he told me - starting anew...  There are a lot of challenges for me out there. I hope I can fight it. I hope I can forget it... Everyday is going to be a new discovery like what was said on our wedding day. I am up to the challenge on discovering new things with my hubby. I know we'll both go through those challenges.  One thing I can promise him is that he won't go through those challenges alone. I will be with him as I have promised on our 4th anniversary. "i promise to love and care for you..." Koi, if there comes a time that you read this, please know that I will always be there for you and that I won't leave you. Take care and remember that I will always love you. Stay happy. I am always happy when I am with you. I may not be able to tell you about it but I am.  Your companionship has brought a lot of things in my life that I could learn from - be it from the good or the bad. Things may be different as it seems.  I just hope you understand... I will be there for you.